My Story

My spiritual journey began very slowly at the age of 17.  For many years I dabbled in spirituality treating it as a hobby and as a mere “part” of my life.  I read many different books and looked into many forms of spirituality, all in an attempt to find one that suited me best.

In the summer of 2003, I made an unequivocal  decision.  That decision was to know God, and to learn how to use the power of my mind.  I did not want to be a fake, I did not want to talk the talk and not walk the walk.   Over the next several months, I underwent an intense period of learning and developing trust in the power that was in me, and the same power that cared for me.

As this was unfolding, I was still trying to do things my way, and experienced what I thought was constant failure.   Until one day in December of 2003 I hit a wall.  I could not go back, because there was nothing to go back to.  I could not go forward, because I had lost all hope that I could do something to save myself.

As I lost all ability to do anything about the situation I was in, I felt angry and bitter with God.  How could I place my faith in God and end up in such a mess?  How was this possible?  In the midst of my despair, I could not believe that this was the outcome.

What happened next was beyond my wildest hopes and dreams.  I needed a miracle, and it is this that I received.  In the intense confusion I was experiencing, I realized two things:

1. If nothing I tried was working, that I must not be asking for what I truly want.
2. That I was doing this to myself and I could stop doing it.  I was responsible for where I was and no one was to blame.  Not even I was to blame.  I simply did not understand.

Suddenly the memory of a question arose in my mind.  ”What would Love do now?”. And I realized I did not know the answer, but that I want to know it.

As a result of this, I did the only natural thing that was possible.  I gave up.  I asked God “What is it that I want, because I don’t know.  What is YOUR will for me? What is my purpose in this world?”

My eyes were closed, my mind blank and open, waiting for an answer.  A flash of light, and a picture so clear and bright that I remember it to this day.  It was the picture of my mother, she was happy working in a garden.  Her face was peaceful and serene. I had never seen her in this way before.

This picture was the realization that what I wanted was not happiness for me alone. What I wanted was for my mother to be happy also. This thought immediately expanded to include everyone in the world.

Everything I was trying before, everything I had asked for before was for myself alone. I excluded everyone from my prayers and from my happiness. I especially did not want my mother to be happy because of all that I thought she had done to me. I literally held a secret thought of vengeance against my mother, which kept her distant and separate from me.

But now, through the eyes of forgiveness, I realized that all happiness is joined. As one gains, all gain, and as one loses, all lose. This was the claim to power that is not of this world.

THIS was God’s will for me. That I receive my function and my happiness on behalf of myself and all the world….and that I spend this life sharing the answer that was given me. This includes all miraculous manifestations that will result from it.

Over the next few hours, my mind spent in contrast to what I once believed to what I now saw the truth. It seemed as if my mind was undergoing a shift that could never be undone. Now I had a new life, a new purpose, and a new perspective on the world.

Towards the evening hours of this day, my mind continued to expand, both in what my purpose was and in what I had the power to do. I knew no limits to what I could ask for, receive and share.

From this state, and under the divine guidance of my own internal teacher, I agreed that something very specific would occur both for me and for all those around me. This was both an act of giving and receiving, because the two are one and the same. This gift however, required the use of divine power, Specific details of this I cannot share here, because it would be a disservice to myself and to you. The full details of this story will one day be published in a book, where the full context of the gift can be grasped and understood.

With my decision firmly set and unchangeable, I went to bed, and spent many hours calling out the name of God over and over and over again. The whole night, it seemed that my body was asleep but my mind was firmly awake, enveloped by the thought of God.

When I woke up the next morning, my mind was very still, very blank, and very peaceful. A single statement kept repeating itself in my mind. “Your will is aligned with the will of God. It is done!”

And so the law was fulfilled in me. I gave and so I received. This was the miracle, the change in my perspective that opened up heaven to me.

Over the next several days, I began to experience something that was truly out of this world. The strange part was that although it was unlike anything I had previously remembered, it was not alien to me. I had been released from insanity, and was simply experiencing myself as who I really was. This experience cannot be described in words, and so I will not attempt to do so.

What I can say about it is that the experience was of myself as soul, as sharing the limitless will of God. The body and the name of Tom Glod literally have nothing to do with who I really am. It was the experience of God being literally within me, communicating with me and through me directly. I am one with God, because my will and God’s will is the same. This is the revelation that changed everything.

The experience faded a period of two weeks, after which began the process of sharing the miracle and the gift I had both given and received. It is now my task, and will remain my task for the rest of my time on earth, to integrate the revelation I had received, and to share its happy promise of God’s perfect Will for everyone.

My learning is not yet complete, and in many ways, this story was simply the beginning of true learning.  But the lessons I have already learned hold great value and must be shared with everyone.

I will end the story here. There is a lot more to it, which as mentioned before, will one day be told and published in a book.

In the mean time ….

As time goes on I will share more of my so called “personal” stories.  They will be posted in the “Stories & Random Thoughts” Category.

~ Thanks you ~